March 2012
4 posts
Stay out of my business.
If it doesn’t concern you then there’s no need for you to get involved. Don’t be snooping around my shit like it has anything to do with you. I swear it’s like people are so bored with their own lives they think it’s okay to mess with other people’s. It’s so annoying when people are all over my shit like it’s theirs… get a life. It pisses me...
February 2012
26 posts
I’m not going to fight for someone who isn’t willing to do the same for me. I want it to be 50/50. I want you to want me as much as I want you. That shouldn’t be too much to ask for. I don’t need anyone who doesn’t even simply want me. I won’t let myself be made a fool.
Today was a living nightmare from the second I woke up. Stayed up from 4am until I had to get ready for school, which I didn’t even want to go to. It was hell having to put on a fake act when I wanted to cry, which I almost did multiple times. But I hate being so vulnerable so I forced myself to keep it together. I can do this, just keep the act up until everybody believes it and maybe...
Closure.
I went to go see my ex boyfriend earlier tonight after almost a year. Damn, time flies. I talk to him every now and then casually but we never had actual closure. Everything was just left a mess between us. We had a little heart to heart and it was a nice feeling, like catching up with an old friend. Or in this case, old best friend.. I was nervous at first cos I wasn’t sure how it would go....
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fukcnjaynee:
Dropping people from left to right.
I honestly don’t have time to deal with anyone that’s not down to ride through with me. If you’re going to be shady or backstab me, excuse yourself out.
Been MIA lately, and i’m fucking fine. Me, myself and I on mines! Fuck these fake hoes, and shady ass bitches.
I’m so tired of listening to everyone talk about prom and their senior year and summer plans. Prom is probably the last thing on my mind as of right now. I have so much bigger things to deal with. Worrying about my what shoes to wear with my dress and how I should do my hair makes me wanna laugh at how simple it is compared to everything else I have on my plate. I’ll be moving away...
How do you move on, when all you want to do is go back? Sometimes it feels like the pain hadn’t lessened over those months - it had actually gotten worse.
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Drinking and smoking.
I know that many people look down upon it but the truth is whether people drink or smoke or not should not change who they are. It shouldn’t affect the things they do. It’s just an aspect of their lives, don’t judge them based on it. Although there are some that let it take over and control their lives but don’t let that minority overlook the majority. People can drink and...
January 2012
9 posts
Another sleepless night.
Tossing, turning, lying awake in bed. Thoughts cloud my mind and keep me awake. Paranoia strikes from all the over analyzing. I just can’t get it off my mind..
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I feel like my friends, aren’t my friends anymore. Yeah, we kick it and hang out. We talk and text. But they don’t know me like they used to. I don’t feel such a strong bond to any of them anymore. I’m going through some things they wouldn’t understand. I’m being forced to grow up and mature faster with all the obstacles I’ve been put through, I look at...
Is it that easy to forget about me?
Just like that.. seems like you don’t even notice that I’m gone. Or maybe it’s that you no longer care for my presence. My absence seems not to bother you one bit. It hurts, but I guess. I see how it is now. I’m good when you’re there and I’ma be good if you ain’t.
You knew exactly what tf you were doing. It was clearly obvious what your intentions were. Now you wanna act as if you didn’t mean to hurt nobody. Ugh please, shut up with that shit.
December 2011
8 posts
Before sex, you help each other get naked. After sex, you only dress yourself. Moral of the story: in life, no one helps you once you’re fucked.
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Who do you go to when you’re on bad terms with the one you look to for comfort and your bestfriend, isn’t your bestfriend anymore and no matter how close, all your other friends wouldn’t understand or give you the same comfort? What then? Who’s shoulder do you lean on? Oh right, you turn to your familiar tear stained pillows and cry yourself to sleep once again, coming to...
No matter how hard you try,
You can’t just “make it up” to me. Nothing will amount to the damage that has already been done. I can only see the hurt and pain you put me through, the stupid lies I was told, and all the bullshit in between. I have been burnt and scarred by what you put me through, by what I have foolishly allowed myself to endure.. I may forgive but as hard as I try, I can never forget.
Every couple argues, it's what you do after the...
November 2011
35 posts
xoxorachany:
I can’t blog on tumblr like I used to anymore. I try to keep my problems off of tumblr. I just feel like nobody needs to know any of my business or what I go through.
